assalamuailaikum
sometimes i feel like i need to figure things out for myself first before everything else. i need to sit down again and re-think. few months ago i had different priorities in mind and right now i feel that i have to sort my priorities again, for the better of me. a little step back out of my comfort zone, and actually learn to see things from a different point of view. but truth be told today, i say today for the longest time i heard bells ringing in my head telling me "god as, what are you doing?"
im not sure if this is fear that im having to deal with. but it might have got to do with my subconscious mind reminding me slow down girl, slow down.
but there's another part of me telling me i need to settle things within myself first. the one thing that have been bugging me for so long, is just what's next for me? what do i do where do i go how do i go about doing it?
feels like im at this junction where i have to cross over a huge river knowing that the hurdle is the cross over but its not going to end there. there's an even greater journey for me to handle after the hurdle, leaving behind the past hurdles before the river.
such a literal way of putting things.