you're invisible; invisible to me

Friday, October 23, 2009

random qoute ; 10:42 AM

Assalamualaikum

"the desire to take medicine is perhaps the greatest feature which distinguishes man from animal"

Saturday, October 17, 2009

small talk ; 12:35 AM

assalamuailaikum

you know how we always leave it to small talk to get the conversation going during a meeting with someone or a group of people or anything like it. even though some would prefer to remain silent , but to each his own.

i would usually opt for the small talk option on most occasions
but apparently i avoid having the chit chat sessions with cab drivers especially when im alone in the cab. i dont understand why, because as everyone would have known, cab drivers do know their stuff, in fact they do have ample of knowledge about topics like politics, the young vs old generation and .. almost anything you can actually think of, thus u can learn a whole lot from them within a few mins ride. worth your money.

but i get really silent in cabs and only make the polite laughter and occasional acknowledgment grunts. the only time i remembered having a conversation with them was this one time when i went home from camp to get some stuff and that was it. i remembered it being a good convo about how now housewives prefer to work part-time and him asking my opinion on that.

maybe it is the fact that i dont get the full frontal face to face convo with him but he gets to do so, with the help of the mirrors. he can see me but i can only see ..his head?

and i have had this weird experience once , the driver turned to me and let go of the steering wheel and asked me " how.. scared or not? " .. that freaked me out but i got over it.. because apparently he just wanted to make a joke or something.

i just thought that today's cab to fidah's place is worth mentioning thus leading to this entry. 4pm at sembawang?

but but but my fave cab rides would def be the night rides and the driver tuned in to class 95.."uncle turn left and go straight right to the end" and i remembered how the songs on the radio would coincide with how i felt for that night. lovely.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

this is just me ; 2:05 AM

assalamuailaikum

sometimes i feel like i need to figure things out for myself first before everything else. i need to sit down again and re-think. few months ago i had different priorities in mind and right now i feel that i have to sort my priorities again, for the better of me. a little step back out of my comfort zone, and actually learn to see things from a different point of view. but truth be told today, i say today for the longest time i heard bells ringing in my head telling me "god as, what are you doing?"

im not sure if this is fear that im having to deal with. but it might have got to do with my subconscious mind reminding me slow down girl, slow down.
but there's another part of me telling me i need to settle things within myself first. the one thing that have been bugging me for so long, is just what's next for me? what do i do where do i go how do i go about doing it?

feels like im at this junction where i have to cross over a huge river knowing that the hurdle is the cross over but its not going to end there. there's an even greater journey for me to handle after the hurdle, leaving behind the past hurdles before the river.

such a literal way of putting things.

THE CHOICE ; 1:55 AM

Assalamuailaikum

Lagging behind will definitely be the greatest drawback ever.
But I'm definitely prepared to crawl my way up slowly.
Even if it means I'm going to start rock bottom.

It might be worth it & that's a huge risk I'm willing to take.
I'm relentless, trust me on that.

Insyallah, if god's willing.