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Monday, November 29, 2010
random post :) ; 11:06 PM

assalamualaikum

Conceit describes the tendency of muslims who are people of overbearing arrogance.
'What they had not attained they supposed they had attained, what they had not understood they supposed they had understood'.
In every area of human activity, arrogance is an impediment to growth.
History teaches that arrogance is the beginning of decline for both individuals and organisations."
This is the way that islam will perish - its castle of arrogance will be destroyed from within by its own soldiers.


Friday, April 9, 2010
The Girl I Used To Be ; 7:54 AM

assalamualaikum

I tell myself that everything's going to be ok,
that there is no reason for all this pain.
The time it took to change, the time it took to
see all those mistakes.
The life I had, I can't have back. The choices I made,
affected me in all those ways.

The mistakes I made have not been forgotten.
The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings
that left me feeling in a different way.
Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal.
I'm not the same, my words are unsaid.
What I hide, is buried deep inside.

To know, to love, to breathe.
It hurts to know that I'll never be the
girl I used to be. The one that would always laugh,
the one that you knew would always be strong.
The feeling is real, the truth is sealed.
I cry in the dark, cuz I know I cut too deep.

The blood is like the rain,
in every way it drifts away.
The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart
are another mark.
If you only knew what I've been through,
or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes.

I'm not fake, I'm not a doll,
I just don't think I'm the same in any way.
So where did my soul go?
Why did I ever let it runaway?
What happened to that girl?

The one that could make you laugh,
the one that would always take you out?
What happened to that girl,
cuz I'm lost without her?
I'm no longer me, the mistakes changed me,
but did they change her?
If only I would know.



Saturday, February 27, 2010
V is very very extraordinary ; 3:16 PM

Assalamualaikum

ive always have had this thing where sometimes i cant express myself when im happy.
my dictionary gets down to zero and the only word to describe myself is just happy.
the happier i am, the lesser i write, and even if i write or tried to express how happy i am, it just doesnt come out right.

the times when i write most are usually when im troubled by double thoughts( which are usually not necessary) or plain unhappiness.
and.. my happy posts are usually those entries only i know whatever has happened kinda entries.

so today i turned 19. :)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :))


Friday, February 19, 2010
the feeling ; 10:24 PM

assalamualaikum

few months back, someone that i was, would have done a lot more than this person that i am today. i think i used to be a much better friend to you than i am today. but it goes the same for you too. but lets just put it this way, ive grown to be such a selfish person who thinks about myself more now than i ever did. but isnt it true when they said, life goes about this way, to put yourself before others. i think you taught me alot on this one.

actually the point is, i could have given you the assurance(even if you dont need it) that i think you need but i am not going to.






----------------------
and ..
my eye prolly twitched for the first reason yesterday.
this shouldnt be happening to me.

i need to sleep this whole thing off.
with sleep comes forgetfulness.


Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Ideal Man ; 3:44 PM

Assalamualaikum

To find an ideal man that i want to spend the rest of my life arent that easy...its true like wad Sister Rima told some of us.

She said,"how much of homework have u done before you are really commit with someone that you think you love them and wants to settle down with that man?
And she said,"don't because you love that man,u go n have sex with them.they so called 'bribed' you by saying,if u love me,u must sleep with me.and you also so stupid lah,u sleep with him.ya lah,too handsome right,cannot afford to lose him.even so you will marry that man,your marriage wont last long.of course lah,before marriage u only know how to sleep with him.you dont even really know him well.NO WONDER LAH DIVORCE RATE SO HIGH NOW!" hahahs

True enough what she said,i mean..if you really love someone,you wont take advantage of the person right?Its no longer a flabbergasted issue nowadays.I sometimes wonder,do they really know the true meaning of love??what do they understand by going around sleeping with their partner which to them it is a signed of love.Or perhaps,by doing this they trying to prove their partner their fidelity.CRAP!

Oh Allah, please forgive all my sins throughout my life.And also to all my muslim friends who have commited sins in their life.. AMIN!

As for me,i would like to find someone who have this criteria:-
1)creating a solid,sincere & understanding muslim family. Reigned respect,love,commitment,mental tranquillity & happiness

2)whose slogan is:religion is sincerity

3)whose goal is:a right education for my 'children'

4)whose reference is:the Qur'an ,the sunnah of the sayings of the worthy ancestors

5)whose aspiration is:that they will be called on the Day Of Judgement to:
enter paradise,you and your wive in happiness. trays of gold & cups will
be passed round them(there will be) therein all that the one's inner-selves
could desire,all that the eyes could delight in,and you'll abide therein forever
(Az-Zukhrul:70-71)

6)whose model is:the prophet(s.a.w),his companions,the followers & those who follow
his footsteps with sincerity till the Day Of Judgement.

Its not easy to find someone special with this criteria.Even if there is,will he able to accept who i am?


Sunday, February 7, 2010
but im only human ; 9:13 PM

assalamualaikum



shouldn't take it too hard, since we can never please everyone around us.
should just breathe and admit that i do have a selfish vein in me.
talk about being insensitive.
if there were images of life in choronological order, i wouldnt have recognized myself in some of them.
boy, was i such a mess at that point of time.

have you ever looked back and wished you hadnt acted the way you did to people around you. when i said people, in this context i meant the people i often overlooked had a part to play in my life. sometimes i think i steer too much to a certain side and i forgot .. life's a circle. i'm in the middle and the rest makes up the full circle.

lesson learnt.

so lets get a grip and look at the positive things now :)


Saturday, February 6, 2010
life as it is ; 5:44 PM

assalamualaikum

sneaking in this short entry before major updates, in a few days time.

how much fun do you have to be in to claim that you have lived your life to the fullest?


how much energy have to be taken off from you to know that you are living your life and definitely not wasting any seconds of what you are left with.


or do we measure 'life to the fullest' with how much we've achieved throughout the years?


crawling back home at 3am literally drained from every energy you have and falling back on your bed sleeping the mornings away and waking up and repeating the whole cycle of fun fun fun and more fun, how much life can we actually get out of this?


or do i have to fill up this page with thousands of photos to literally show and proclaim that i am living my life

or maybe i should learn the 'art' of facebooking and start superpoking people or whatnots what? vampire? give a hug? i dont know all this f.book. now is that living my life? or friendster? i dont know.


do i have to show/write out the fact that everyday i am living my life? i mean its okay right if i dont? what do i lose if i dont blog about who i went out with? who im with right now? who what where how why? its okay right? its not about personal/ private matters that im not sharing it with the world. i do i do tell the close ones about whats happening everyday in my life. and i love sharing it with them. it doesnt make me less of an interesting person just because i dont blog much about personal stuffs right? or maybe i dont even blog that much now.

i dont know for now. but i am sure that i am learning to live my life, not to the fullest for now but yes, i am enjoying my life right now. the simplest joy that i can ever ask for.
i really dont know much
but i can tell you right now i have wonderful wonderful family and friends/bestfriends/girlfriends/schoolfriends who have been with me throughout my life and i love them so
much. and i appreciate them being there for me and watching me grow up.
and i make it known to them that i do care so much for them because what the world needs right now is l.o.v.e from everyone.
i love the fact that i talk, i talk alot to people around me and with that i learn alot , i gain more than i can ever ask for. friendships and two cents worth of thoughts. and life lessons. and the fact that i am beginning to love the ambiguity of life.
and how its forming around me.
and yes, the fact that i end my day/nights with hugs from the people i last meet everyday. and yes, the fact that i have time for myself to learn to love myself even more.
and the most important fact that i love is that i go home most nights with my heart at ease and i can fall asleep easily and push aside all my worries and just climb to my bed after a really good shower and end the night with a good book/dvd/movie/tvshows or perhaps a good convo with someone via the msn/phone/sms.
or that i flip through photos and smile to myself because i get reminded of the so much fun i had that day with my loved ones. even if the photos were taken so long ago. and that i get reminded of good ol' days


and that im learning to cope with days that are just my off days. i do have terrible days where i dont end my nights with what i said in the prev sentence. and i still do get heartaches and get all crushed up because of unexpected things that fall in my way. and when these days happen i do cry myself to sleep at night or even cry my walk back home. i do get all sappy listening to sad sad songs. i still fear so many things in my life. some days my self esteem get so low that i prolly just want to stay home the whole day. and much much more terrible stuffs. and these days dont just happen for one day, sometimes it lasts for weeks. some nights, it still hurts a lil that ive lost some people in my life and everytime i think of them the only thing i can do is just wish them well. and i do get lonely days/nights where you feel so miserable that you have to go through such agony. but its ok right? we all go through this right?



and lastly, this girl that i am
i still have alot to discover about myself and with the much stuffs that have been happening this past few years, ive learned to love and hate some things/qualities in me. and i am learning to be a much better person that i was yesterday to finally say that i have lived my life to the fullest. and the mystery word alongside L.I.F.E would be L.O.V.E. who knows what these two words actually mean. most dictionaries are prolly wrong when it comes to these two. what life and love can do to you.

alot more years to come, expect the unexpected coz the unexpected is what makes life worth living.

true?


yours truly
NAME:NUR SAKINAH

DOB:27 FEB 1991



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izzdin
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kak nora(cuz)
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Monday, November 29, 2010
random post :) ; 11:06 PM

assalamualaikum

Conceit describes the tendency of muslims who are people of overbearing arrogance.
'What they had not attained they supposed they had attained, what they had not understood they supposed they had understood'.
In every area of human activity, arrogance is an impediment to growth.
History teaches that arrogance is the beginning of decline for both individuals and organisations."
This is the way that islam will perish - its castle of arrogance will be destroyed from within by its own soldiers.


Friday, April 9, 2010
The Girl I Used To Be ; 7:54 AM

assalamualaikum

I tell myself that everything's going to be ok,
that there is no reason for all this pain.
The time it took to change, the time it took to
see all those mistakes.
The life I had, I can't have back. The choices I made,
affected me in all those ways.

The mistakes I made have not been forgotten.
The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings
that left me feeling in a different way.
Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal.
I'm not the same, my words are unsaid.
What I hide, is buried deep inside.

To know, to love, to breathe.
It hurts to know that I'll never be the
girl I used to be. The one that would always laugh,
the one that you knew would always be strong.
The feeling is real, the truth is sealed.
I cry in the dark, cuz I know I cut too deep.

The blood is like the rain,
in every way it drifts away.
The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart
are another mark.
If you only knew what I've been through,
or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes.

I'm not fake, I'm not a doll,
I just don't think I'm the same in any way.
So where did my soul go?
Why did I ever let it runaway?
What happened to that girl?

The one that could make you laugh,
the one that would always take you out?
What happened to that girl,
cuz I'm lost without her?
I'm no longer me, the mistakes changed me,
but did they change her?
If only I would know.



Saturday, February 27, 2010
V is very very extraordinary ; 3:16 PM

Assalamualaikum

ive always have had this thing where sometimes i cant express myself when im happy.
my dictionary gets down to zero and the only word to describe myself is just happy.
the happier i am, the lesser i write, and even if i write or tried to express how happy i am, it just doesnt come out right.

the times when i write most are usually when im troubled by double thoughts( which are usually not necessary) or plain unhappiness.
and.. my happy posts are usually those entries only i know whatever has happened kinda entries.

so today i turned 19. :)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :))


Friday, February 19, 2010
the feeling ; 10:24 PM

assalamualaikum

few months back, someone that i was, would have done a lot more than this person that i am today. i think i used to be a much better friend to you than i am today. but it goes the same for you too. but lets just put it this way, ive grown to be such a selfish person who thinks about myself more now than i ever did. but isnt it true when they said, life goes about this way, to put yourself before others. i think you taught me alot on this one.

actually the point is, i could have given you the assurance(even if you dont need it) that i think you need but i am not going to.






----------------------
and ..
my eye prolly twitched for the first reason yesterday.
this shouldnt be happening to me.

i need to sleep this whole thing off.
with sleep comes forgetfulness.


Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Ideal Man ; 3:44 PM

Assalamualaikum

To find an ideal man that i want to spend the rest of my life arent that easy...its true like wad Sister Rima told some of us.

She said,"how much of homework have u done before you are really commit with someone that you think you love them and wants to settle down with that man?
And she said,"don't because you love that man,u go n have sex with them.they so called 'bribed' you by saying,if u love me,u must sleep with me.and you also so stupid lah,u sleep with him.ya lah,too handsome right,cannot afford to lose him.even so you will marry that man,your marriage wont last long.of course lah,before marriage u only know how to sleep with him.you dont even really know him well.NO WONDER LAH DIVORCE RATE SO HIGH NOW!" hahahs

True enough what she said,i mean..if you really love someone,you wont take advantage of the person right?Its no longer a flabbergasted issue nowadays.I sometimes wonder,do they really know the true meaning of love??what do they understand by going around sleeping with their partner which to them it is a signed of love.Or perhaps,by doing this they trying to prove their partner their fidelity.CRAP!

Oh Allah, please forgive all my sins throughout my life.And also to all my muslim friends who have commited sins in their life.. AMIN!

As for me,i would like to find someone who have this criteria:-
1)creating a solid,sincere & understanding muslim family. Reigned respect,love,commitment,mental tranquillity & happiness

2)whose slogan is:religion is sincerity

3)whose goal is:a right education for my 'children'

4)whose reference is:the Qur'an ,the sunnah of the sayings of the worthy ancestors

5)whose aspiration is:that they will be called on the Day Of Judgement to:
enter paradise,you and your wive in happiness. trays of gold & cups will
be passed round them(there will be) therein all that the one's inner-selves
could desire,all that the eyes could delight in,and you'll abide therein forever
(Az-Zukhrul:70-71)

6)whose model is:the prophet(s.a.w),his companions,the followers & those who follow
his footsteps with sincerity till the Day Of Judgement.

Its not easy to find someone special with this criteria.Even if there is,will he able to accept who i am?


Sunday, February 7, 2010
but im only human ; 9:13 PM

assalamualaikum



shouldn't take it too hard, since we can never please everyone around us.
should just breathe and admit that i do have a selfish vein in me.
talk about being insensitive.
if there were images of life in choronological order, i wouldnt have recognized myself in some of them.
boy, was i such a mess at that point of time.

have you ever looked back and wished you hadnt acted the way you did to people around you. when i said people, in this context i meant the people i often overlooked had a part to play in my life. sometimes i think i steer too much to a certain side and i forgot .. life's a circle. i'm in the middle and the rest makes up the full circle.

lesson learnt.

so lets get a grip and look at the positive things now :)


Saturday, February 6, 2010
life as it is ; 5:44 PM

assalamualaikum

sneaking in this short entry before major updates, in a few days time.

how much fun do you have to be in to claim that you have lived your life to the fullest?


how much energy have to be taken off from you to know that you are living your life and definitely not wasting any seconds of what you are left with.


or do we measure 'life to the fullest' with how much we've achieved throughout the years?


crawling back home at 3am literally drained from every energy you have and falling back on your bed sleeping the mornings away and waking up and repeating the whole cycle of fun fun fun and more fun, how much life can we actually get out of this?


or do i have to fill up this page with thousands of photos to literally show and proclaim that i am living my life

or maybe i should learn the 'art' of facebooking and start superpoking people or whatnots what? vampire? give a hug? i dont know all this f.book. now is that living my life? or friendster? i dont know.


do i have to show/write out the fact that everyday i am living my life? i mean its okay right if i dont? what do i lose if i dont blog about who i went out with? who im with right now? who what where how why? its okay right? its not about personal/ private matters that im not sharing it with the world. i do i do tell the close ones about whats happening everyday in my life. and i love sharing it with them. it doesnt make me less of an interesting person just because i dont blog much about personal stuffs right? or maybe i dont even blog that much now.

i dont know for now. but i am sure that i am learning to live my life, not to the fullest for now but yes, i am enjoying my life right now. the simplest joy that i can ever ask for.
i really dont know much
but i can tell you right now i have wonderful wonderful family and friends/bestfriends/girlfriends/schoolfriends who have been with me throughout my life and i love them so
much. and i appreciate them being there for me and watching me grow up.
and i make it known to them that i do care so much for them because what the world needs right now is l.o.v.e from everyone.
i love the fact that i talk, i talk alot to people around me and with that i learn alot , i gain more than i can ever ask for. friendships and two cents worth of thoughts. and life lessons. and the fact that i am beginning to love the ambiguity of life.
and how its forming around me.
and yes, the fact that i end my day/nights with hugs from the people i last meet everyday. and yes, the fact that i have time for myself to learn to love myself even more.
and the most important fact that i love is that i go home most nights with my heart at ease and i can fall asleep easily and push aside all my worries and just climb to my bed after a really good shower and end the night with a good book/dvd/movie/tvshows or perhaps a good convo with someone via the msn/phone/sms.
or that i flip through photos and smile to myself because i get reminded of the so much fun i had that day with my loved ones. even if the photos were taken so long ago. and that i get reminded of good ol' days


and that im learning to cope with days that are just my off days. i do have terrible days where i dont end my nights with what i said in the prev sentence. and i still do get heartaches and get all crushed up because of unexpected things that fall in my way. and when these days happen i do cry myself to sleep at night or even cry my walk back home. i do get all sappy listening to sad sad songs. i still fear so many things in my life. some days my self esteem get so low that i prolly just want to stay home the whole day. and much much more terrible stuffs. and these days dont just happen for one day, sometimes it lasts for weeks. some nights, it still hurts a lil that ive lost some people in my life and everytime i think of them the only thing i can do is just wish them well. and i do get lonely days/nights where you feel so miserable that you have to go through such agony. but its ok right? we all go through this right?



and lastly, this girl that i am
i still have alot to discover about myself and with the much stuffs that have been happening this past few years, ive learned to love and hate some things/qualities in me. and i am learning to be a much better person that i was yesterday to finally say that i have lived my life to the fullest. and the mystery word alongside L.I.F.E would be L.O.V.E. who knows what these two words actually mean. most dictionaries are prolly wrong when it comes to these two. what life and love can do to you.

alot more years to come, expect the unexpected coz the unexpected is what makes life worth living.

true?


yours truly
NAME:NUR SAKINAH

DOB:27 FEB 1991

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Life is ful of colours, open your eyes and see them.



chat
Tagboard here. .

THE COLOURS
link here. Let the colours connect.

azri
emilyza
ezma
farah(cuz)
hidayat
izzdin
kak azie(cuz)
kak iena
kak nora(cuz)
lyeanna
ms sharifah(chr)
radiah
shaiful
siti(cuz)

extra

kak liza boutique
studiofrost
nurulaini
n2boutique
soda gembira
fashionloot
FABULOUS-ly
don't forget
Your archives; The unsaturated past.

January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
August 2009
October 2009
January 2010
February 2010
April 2010
November 2010

thank you
Your credits. Thank the colours in your life.

Bangastic Fonts